I cannot be here.

19-year old Samuel stood in front of the mirror still horrified by his reflection.

He still found it hard to come to terms with the fact that he was now a middle-aged woman.

A middle-aged woman he had paid for sex and had lost everything in the bargain.

A middle-aged woman whose he had just found stared in a couple of cheap adult movies.

A middle-aged woman who had been married twice and had 2 kids who lives with their fathers.

A middle-aged woman who lives and works out of a cheap hotel.

Which was now his life until he could find a way of proving who he really was.